on tonight's news...
This afternoon, I'm getting my first check as a result of a translation. A whopping $50. This was to be a first draft, sort of a test of my abilities. The document was in spreadsheet form, so I had to teach myself Xcel. This did not go quickly. With some 10 (or more, I lost track) hours of work spread across a few days, it's not the greatest hourly wage. But it's a start, with a super useful skill acquired.
I tell ya, this process has been going so slowly. It has the potential to pay very well, with lots of jobs, and in a skilled labor field, where I'll be getting better and better as time goes on. Especially the interpreting, which has some aspects to it that, well, I just really like. If it's going successfully, you lose any sense of self while you're translating, since you have to be focused and on-the-ball, all the time, working the language like crazy to get the sense across. There isn't the time or space for thoughts of my own, and if they do start to creep in, I notice immediately that the hours have passed unnoticed and uncounted.
But my excitement of the past few weeks thinned somewhat... I need to be patient for this to get started, yes I know, in the meantime I have no monies! My bank account got down to zero a couple days ago, and most of my new paycheck goes to bills. The christmastime feel is definitely adding to the problem, I really want to get some gifts for people, and I don't know if I'll be able to. This is the first time I haven't had that extra amount to play with. I don't wanna complain, I just want to give presents is all.
The new possibility: I applied for this Bulk Buyer position at the Co-op. More responsibility, better pay, straight-up good job. Would mean greater involvement over there, which I've been wanting for some time now. I have no buyer experience, but I think I interviewed well, and I'm well liked. They know I'll put myself into it, and work hard. Wish me luck. I'll know by the end of next week.
In between writing this, I'm helping make the nog for tonight's Eggnog Party. 6 batches in all, carefully orchestrated under Hilary's skilled eye. Yes! This means a social occasion in the life of Nicolas, quite the rarity. Though I've loved being free from those, this feels special, and I'm actually looking forward to it. And as I've also been in a state of heartbreak and heartache, I'm happy to remind myself that there is a larger world out here.
I have a hard time navigating the troubles of avoidance and obsession. I should do neither with this aching situation, yet it's easy to accuse myself of both. All too easy. My spiritual practice means looking at what's going on in my head, being aware of my mindstream. Yet the teachings include caution in obsessing, and holding on in this grasping way that I (can) do. I think that's why I'm feeling so greatful for the writing pad, it's really the all-essential outlet that has to be included in this process. Even just the feeling, that I am getting somewhere on coping with the problem, is nice.
I tell ya, this process has been going so slowly. It has the potential to pay very well, with lots of jobs, and in a skilled labor field, where I'll be getting better and better as time goes on. Especially the interpreting, which has some aspects to it that, well, I just really like. If it's going successfully, you lose any sense of self while you're translating, since you have to be focused and on-the-ball, all the time, working the language like crazy to get the sense across. There isn't the time or space for thoughts of my own, and if they do start to creep in, I notice immediately that the hours have passed unnoticed and uncounted.
But my excitement of the past few weeks thinned somewhat... I need to be patient for this to get started, yes I know, in the meantime I have no monies! My bank account got down to zero a couple days ago, and most of my new paycheck goes to bills. The christmastime feel is definitely adding to the problem, I really want to get some gifts for people, and I don't know if I'll be able to. This is the first time I haven't had that extra amount to play with. I don't wanna complain, I just want to give presents is all.
The new possibility: I applied for this Bulk Buyer position at the Co-op. More responsibility, better pay, straight-up good job. Would mean greater involvement over there, which I've been wanting for some time now. I have no buyer experience, but I think I interviewed well, and I'm well liked. They know I'll put myself into it, and work hard. Wish me luck. I'll know by the end of next week.
In between writing this, I'm helping make the nog for tonight's Eggnog Party. 6 batches in all, carefully orchestrated under Hilary's skilled eye. Yes! This means a social occasion in the life of Nicolas, quite the rarity. Though I've loved being free from those, this feels special, and I'm actually looking forward to it. And as I've also been in a state of heartbreak and heartache, I'm happy to remind myself that there is a larger world out here.
I have a hard time navigating the troubles of avoidance and obsession. I should do neither with this aching situation, yet it's easy to accuse myself of both. All too easy. My spiritual practice means looking at what's going on in my head, being aware of my mindstream. Yet the teachings include caution in obsessing, and holding on in this grasping way that I (can) do. I think that's why I'm feeling so greatful for the writing pad, it's really the all-essential outlet that has to be included in this process. Even just the feeling, that I am getting somewhere on coping with the problem, is nice.
posted by Nicolas at 10:28 AM
1 Comments:
I love that passing of time unnoticed. It means I've been really involved in what I'm doing and I adore that feeling. It's almost my favorite part of writing. It's so great for you to be getting into translations. You're right, it can be very lucrative if you're any good, which I'm sure you are. You seem to have the 'language' gift. I wish you luck in getting the new job at the store. I'm sorry you feel you're obsessing, or trying not to as the case may be. Matters of the heart are rarely easy to deal with. I hope you enjoyed your party and continue to indulge in a more active social life. It can be good for you every now and then.
Merry Holidays Nic,
Lisa
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